As usual, the first couple of days of classes have been overwhelming and make people go home and highly consider dropping out and buying 38 cats and drastically dying their hair or some other dramatic thing.
When we made a list on the board of all the things we will have to do as English teachers, I couldn’t help but think of a laundry tag you find on clothes that tell you what you can and cannot do. I treat laundry tags like the Bible. They are something to look at every now and then when you’re not sure what to do. I shrunk a shirt once because I washed it wrong, and I felt really un-womanlike and non-domesticated so I vowed it would never happen again. We belong in the kitchen after all, not the laundry room.
All of our duties as English teachers would make the world’s largest laundry tag. And, quite frankly, that freaks me out. Then we made the freaking out worse by making a list of “fears in the classroom”. I am a people pleaser to the extreme. I will go out of my way to make sure my enemies love me. I hate being disliked. Being a people pleaser doesn’t mean my niceness is phony, if anything, it makes my niceness more authentic because I genuinely care enough about each person to make sure they like me back. ANYWAYS, that’s my biggest fear…that I won’t please students. I won’t please administration. I won’t please parents. I won’t please myself. It’s my biggest fear because there is no realistic way to please each and every single one of those people listed. It’s up to me to prioritize who I please.
I wish this was a laundry tag I could hand to my mom. Unfortunately, it’s not. But it’s a laundry tag I will figure out once I get into the classroom and can experience these issues first hand.